Dear Diary,

Today I sinned.
I made my mother cry
and I didn't like it either.

The worst feeling/sight ever is to see your mother cry
especially knowing that you were the cause of her tears.

I'm sorry mommy.
Please don't cry anymore.

Well after this incident, I realise that I need change.
I need a new behavior hopefully for the better.

Well I'm going to try to : Be less Rude towards my elders
keep my comments that might hurt others to myself
Be more kind in actions and Speech.
Spend less money cause spending unnecessarily is also a sin
Do more good deeds
Listen and obey to elders cause i think they should know better

Well I dunno. Its just that maybe I am a good person.
But I hurt people a lot too.
Or maybe I'm really being pmssy and it will all go away as soon as the period comes.
Man i don't know.

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Have you ever felt like your being ignored?
By your own friends and family?
And somehow it always ends up to be the same people.

I dunno if its me just being paranoid.. but i feel like I'm left out on things.
Well but its like it has happened more than once.
So maybe its not paranoia.

I don't need all eyes on me.
No I'm not seeking for attention.
But I'm seeking for attention just enough to be heard by someone
who actually cares.

Okay I still feel nothing and I hate it.